Doubt

okay so i really have to get off my butt and do this more often. i was asked for my username and password when i got to my website just then. now i know most people will be like 'you're always asked for those' but i tend to keep myself logged into everything on my computer so i don't have to go through all of that. so when something logs out on me because i haven't been on in a while, its been too long since i've been on...

anyway, Doubt. Doubt is the new production i'm involved in. my role is assistant director/ producer. its fun and it feels so good to be back in the theater realm of the world. Doubt is an amazing play, its about the suspicions of a nun about a priest having relations with a student. but the audience is never told if the priest is guilty or not, not even at the end. it really is up to the audience to decide if Father Flynn really did it or if he is innocent. its intriguing and our cast plays it really well.

though i had a slight shock to the system at our last rehearsal, our director and the woman who is playing Sister Aloysius (the older nun, Meryl Streep's character in the movie) couldn't be there due to all the flooding that has been happening lately. but the rest of the cast met and we went through it all. now because i was there the rest of the cast asked me to step in and read for Sister Aloysius. i said yes then got up to the stands and went uh oh when i realised how much i couldn't read the part. i had no idea how to. i felt like not only didn't i have the life experience but the authority to [lay this part. she is the principle of a school and is very set in her ways. so the first couple of scenes were interesting to say the least. then i sort of had to say to myself that the rest of the cast deserves the best that i can do so i need to find something that will help me play this character better. i then realised that i had been in her position before. i've been in the position of authority where i have had to deal with matter and parents and talk to them in a way that i would have rather not have. being in child care and umpiring do that to you. so i really clutched onto that and used it as best as i could. i'm not sure how well it came off to the rest of the cast but it worked for me and thats all that mattered at that particular moment. so that was a really big learning step for me. taking something and changing it slightly so that it serves you the best way it can.

hopefully i wont have to do it again, because although it was fun i don't really want to play that character until i feel like i'm really ready to play such a character.

oh well i shall keep you all updated on this progressing show (well reading we're not actually doing it full out, though it would be fun to do it all out)

Till next time
Katie
xo